Saturday, May 14, 2016
It's the time of year when I feel like I can't catch my breath for all the running-running-running I need to do. Everything happens at once during these May weeks. I love to be busy, but I don't relish the feeling of needing to be in several places at once. Lately, we've been seeing the doctors again for the LB, which is never easy, but the news has mostly been positive. This time last year, we were preparing for a major surgery, in addition to everything else we needed to do with the school year winding up, and we're glad not to be doing that now. Seeing the doctors again isn't so bad; in a way, they begin to feel like friends. We're fortunate to have good people to help us care for him.
It's a Saturday at home for us. We're watching Home Improvement on DVD and relaxing. The small Bears have runny noses and with the biggest school and ballet events still to come this week, we're just taking it easy this weekend. I was crocheting a bit earlier but I have to tell you that I'm feeling very uninspired at the moment. I'm sure some of it is just the time of year, but I'm also feeling out of ideas. I've been halfheartedly crocheting squares from the Paeonia pattern I shared a few weeks ago. I did the math; I have to make nearly 300 of them to have a blanket sized for my bed, and I'm afraid I'm just not feeling it enough. I'm thinking about big, basic granny squares instead, joining them with gray outer rounds. I've pinned a few granny afghans lately, like I just started crocheting (my crochet pinboard is here, if you're interested). I like Paeonia, but I'm undecided. Maybe it's time to have a little crochet break and do something else for a while instead. I do have sewing and cross-stitch projects that need attention. Too many projects? Undecided and uninspired - this is my crafting phobia.
This week, I received another email from someone who wants to help me "brand" my blog. I get these emails fairly often. I ignore them. This particular company wanted to help me design clothing that would boost my "brand recognition." Well. I have a style to my blog, and a color scheme, but I'd hardly call that a brand. I didn't engage with the offer, of course, but it made me think about what kind of blog I actually have. It isn't a craft blog; I see myself as more of a dabbler - an enthusiast - than an expert. It's not a food blog, though I enjoy sharing recipes that I've tried and liked. I don't have a farm, or a large family, or religious content. I've made a little bit of money with my blog but it's hardly a business. I'm pretty hopeless with social media; I don't think I've scrolled through my Instagram feed yet this month. Maybe I don't have a focus but I like it this way. I've spent too much of my life worrying about what others think; finally, now that I'm in my late thirties, I've been learning how to let go. It's liberating, and I wish I'd figured it out sooner. Life is so much easier when you aren't imagining that everyone thinks you're ridiculous.
I started blogging with the idea that I would write about the good, positive things in my life, to help me appreciate them more, I think. Everyone hopes people will read their blog; I've had modest success, which keeps me going too, of course, but this whole blogging gambit, for me, is mainly about the small things in life - the ones that make me happy and remind me of what's important. I write about my hobbies, my family, or the season, or the sunset or my backyard flowers. So that's my focus, I think - simple, happy things. I'm glad others out there enjoy the same kinds of things I do. It makes me happy to know that people like to stop by and see what I've been up to. You're good people, I like it when you come around. Pull up an afghan, stay for tea.